I have said prayers in private this retrograde.
But here is my candle burning in what's left of my crystal corner.
#lepidolite #citrinequartz #rosequartz
and the scent of the candle fills the apartment with beautiful smell.
Tomorrow is an early start in hopes I get up that time.
Mornings are my enemy. The depression can be brutal.
I know tomorrow is a chance to assert my own wants and needs and what I am worth.
Tomorrow is also one day before my Nanna would have turned 92. She passed away in 2016 at 89. 2 months prior to her 90th. A Libra woman like myself. She was one of my most admired women in my life because of her unconditional love for me. I burn a candle for her too. She spent every second day of my 5 months in hospital training it 3 stops or so to Westmead hospital just to see me and be there. When I was homeless, she was the one who tried to help me. She tried in her own ways but all with love. Her grandchildren were her pride and glory and reason for love. She lost her husband in 1985 and lived until 2016 without him. Her other half. He survived world war 2 but not long enough in the marriage. He was 60. She lost her son, my uncle, aged 47 and was sick with dementia for 10 years. She died from pneumonia peacefully in the hospice and her funeral was sad, but full of love. I read something at it. And I could never do that kind of thing but I owed her the most humble words of saving my life at times and loving me for my mistakes and shitholes I fell into. She was the matriarch of our family and 13th October feels so weird unable to send her flowers to her nursing home, or visit her or call wherever she was. She was a libra at heart like a child on her birthday. Loving the attention and presents and celebration. But gave the same love back to all of us. I wish I had known her whole chart but she was the peacemaker and leader, lover and people pleaser and so true and genuine and harmonious love like a true libra sun who has found that balance between personality and soul. She completed herself but her love for her sons and grandkids and husband was so very deep within. For you, nanna 💝🤗🌄❣♎💌💋💛💙💚💜🎂🍰🍦🍩🍭🍯🍚🍧🍤🍨👑🌷🌻🌼🌸💐🐝🐞🍀🦋🦄🐺🌹🌺🌳💖